Wednesday, July 9, 2014


Bismillahirahman nirrahim

I am writing this to the brutal Israelis who have been taking the right of many Palestinians to live and their supporters.

Before reading this please be aware that this is not subjected to my Israelis friends who have pure hearts to support the suffered Palestinians and against their government and This has nothing to do with Jewish-Muslim thing so this also is not subjected to any Jewish. I have many Jewish friends who are practicing Judaism, The Rabbi and the temple's members. We are praying in our way for the peace between Israel and Palestine.

First of all, I believe there is no religion teaching its followers to start a war, to kill and to take others right. So, if anyone see anybody does those bad things, that means "He is NOT practicing his religion". So STOP pointing on any religion for human action!
and as human START be aware that you are what you belongs to, people will see you based on to which family you are belong, your nationality, your religion, your education, your alumni and so on. So once you start thinking of doing bad thing, please be considered of the side effects that you will cause to what you are belongs to.

Let's be objective

Watching what happen in Gaza recently must have broken many hearts. Of course for those who have been following the news this news isn't an odd scene at all cause it's been happening since looooooong time ago. But where is the justice. I know only God (Allah SWT) who can be just and save those people who have been suffered both in Israel and Palestine side. But we can always do something (at least praying), especially the worldwide country leaders. We must find the way to stop this conflict. Some people said, even the holy book says that this war will have no end till the doomsday. Still, it is not the reason to not doing anything and just watch and wait till the doomsday come. Well, we're not then just kill ourself coz we're gonna die anyway right? We try to survive, live healthy life. Living life to the fullest. Same thing with this conflict. We need to do our best to help them solve the conflict.

This conflict is not easy for any side (both Israel and Palestine). This is not easy for Israelis who have always been in fear and stress to find a shelter to save their life. Israel do have the Iron Dome (Read: but once you hear the rockets flying in your air, there always fear of what if the missile hit your area and kills your family and friends so again it is not easy for Israelis. And what about for Palestinians? It even worse, because they have nothing on their sky. No radar, no dome, nothing to intercept any rocket. Every inch they move to save their life can end up to be their grave yard. Sad right? Well most of us will be on Palestinians because they are HELPLESS including me. I am forever with Palestine. But, I fully realize that it is not easy to be Israelis as well, how come it is easy to see your government killing others brutally and take others right to live in their own land. Believe it or not, many Israelis agreed to share the land in the same way (based on UN 1967 border ) and believed that "Palestinian no need their (Israelis) permission to have a state" (Read:

Well.. So what is the problem?
the problem is the Israel government and its supporters country who keep occupying and taking Palestinians right. It is stupid when you scream and shout about "ANTY BULLYING" and you just let what happen in Gaza. Keep telling that Palestinians deserved the torture coz they start throwing the missile first. Come on dude, your land is illegally occupied by other country, you don't even have enough access to clean water, medical service, good education, appropriate housings and not even having an airport?! can you live like that? OPEN YOUR EYES. Maybe you guys don't know how hard it is to get independence of your own land. Me as Indonesian, I knew ENOUGH because my country struggled hundreds of years to be free to be an independent country. WE DON'T OCCUPY OTHERS LAND TO BE AN INDEPENDENT COUNTRY WE FIGHT FOR IT. And you know what, not only Indonesia, many other countries also fight and shed their blood to be independent. So is it odd what Palestine does right now? is it wrong to fight to be free? is it wrong to fight for your future generation so they can play safely outside, get a good education, find good jobs, eat good foods and go to a good hospital when they get sick?
Call your heart people! Shame on you who still think that Palestinians deserve the suffer.

I am on Palestinian side not because I am muslim and not because I close my eyes and just agree with whatever Hammas has done to Israelis. If Hammas starts the war, if they kill the innocent, if the occupy Israel, I will scream as well to save Israel to free Israel, If Israel is on Palestinian position. Sorry for Israelis who feel that the world didn't see that they are suffering as well, sorry to Israelis mother who lose their children because of the conflict, sorry for those who lose their families and friends. We do feel the lose and the pain but I know that you also know and agree with me that the way your government called "payback" to what Palestinians fighters have done is not right and unjust. Unjust for Palestinian and for you innocent Israelis as well. Believe me, you will do exactly the same thing if you were in Palestinian position. I know you know coz you guys also fight your government's act and called them to stop, thank you for doing that.

For the supporters of this brutal actions, have you read enough? what news are you watching? Call your heart people. Imagine what if it happens to you?
See this if you had read enough than you can comment. Well, most of you will think that I am with Palestinian because I am Muslim and they are my bothers and my sisters. The answer is it because they need us (me, you and everyone). I can be Rachel Corie for my (any religions) friends, human being, who suffer because of injustice. (Read inspirational story of Rachel Corie 23-year-old American peace activist who was crushed to death by a bulldozer as she tried to prevent the Israeli army destroying a Palestinian homes in the Gaza Strip in 2003 here:

I hope this can open all of our eyes. Call your heart please..

For my Palestinian brothers and sisters I am so sorry. All I can do is only share your sad stories to the world and pray. Laa Haula wa Laa Quwwata illa billah
You are always in our prayers
Save Palestine, Save Gaza
Pray for Palestine, Pray for Gaza
Indonesia with Palestine

Some informative sources:

And many more you can find online. We are educated people so don't let ourself get fooled by unjust news from the full-of-interest-media.
Let be smart

Peace and Unconditional love for every human being and the world we live in

Sunday, March 2, 2014


Untuk Sahabat Una yang sedang berduka...


Ayah adalah Cinta pertama putrinya..
Kehilangan Lelaki yang menjadi Cinta pertama kita itu memang menyakitkan..
Sakit yang tidak bisa diungkapkan dan tidak akan pernah ada obatnya selain Ikhlas..

Inilah patah hati yang bisa membuat kita menangis seumur hidup..
Menagis karna mengingat kasih sayang dan cintanya..
Menangis karna kenangan saat saat bersamanya..
Menangis karna tak sanggup membayangkan masa depan tanpa dirinya..
Menangis karna angan ingin melihat senyum diwajahnya menatap kebahagiaan kita..

Engkau, Sahabat yang sedang patah hati sama seperti ku.. 
Menangislah! karna kenangan itu memang indah
Dan karna dia dan cintanya juga teramat indah

Engkau, Sahabat yang sedang patah hati sama seperti ku
Jangan sesali kepergiannya.. karna memang sudah waktunya..
Dia adalah kepunyaan yang Maha Indah Allah SWT
Bersyukurlah! Bersyukurlah karna Allah menjemputnya untuk mengakhiri deritanya. 
Karna Allah sayang dia

Allah tentunya sudah punya tempat terbaik untuk dia
Karna dia.. lelaki yg menjadi cinta pertama kita adalah lelaki yang baik, 
suami yg baik dan ayah yg baik
InsyaAllah Allah telah memberinya nikmat khusnul khatimah dalam tidurnya yang abadi

Engkau, Sahabat yang sedang patah hati sama seperti ku
Walau cinta pertama itu tidak lagi dapat kita lihat rupanya dan tidak tersentuh jasad nya,
Sebutlah namanya dalam setiap doa..
Niatkan kebaikan untuk dirinya..
Karna doa kitalah yg bisa membelai, melindungi dan menemani tidurnya yg panjang
hingga tiba waktunya Kita bertemu lagi di Syurga
InsyaAllah, Amin

Engkau, Sahabat yang sedang patah hati sama seperti ku
Sabarlah! Ikhlaslah! Kuatlah!
Karna mereka orang2 yg juga sangat dia cintai sebesar cintanya padamu, membutuhkan mu!

Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun

Thursday, January 2, 2014


Hello everyone.. Happy New Year "2014" :) My New Year was sooo white, we had (in Lincoln, Nebraska, USA) the snow showered right on the first day of the year 2014. Wondering how's your New Year there.. :)

Anyway, I am going to give another delish food recipe for sure it's gonna be easy brizzy for everyone. And for my lovely Indonesian friends, I will also give the recipe in Bahasa Indonesia (Indonesian Language). Hehehe.. by the way, for Indonesian Burek sounds a little bit funny as a food name coz Burek means "blurry or vague" in Bahasa Indonesia. But of course it's nothing to do with its meaning in Bahasa Indonesia. I would say the taste of Burek, especially My Burek (The Turkishindo style Burek), is closer to taste and texture of "Martabak Mesir". 

For your information guys, there's no such thing called Turkishindo Burek. I named it that way coz originally it was a Turkish Burek recipe I learned from my friend Meryem Abla and then I did some experiment on it by replacing and adding some Indonesian spice. And it turned out good, and some friends asked for the recipe.

Burek is one of authentic foods of Mediterranean Countries like Turkey and Bosnia. First time I tried Burek, it was from my Turkish friend who invited for dinner in her apartment. I thought only Turkish has the Burek but I figured out later on the Ramadhan's Iftar at Bosnian Masjed, the Bosnian also have their own Burek. Anyway, I love both the Turkish and Bosnian Burek. Sooo.. let's try my Turkishindo Burek :) 

  • 1 package of Fillo Dough (any brand, you can find it at most groceries store. I got mine at the arab store)
  • 1 stick of Unsalted Butter, equal to 1/2 cup or 4 ounce (melt it down) and about 1/2 table spoon of butter for the pan
  • 3 eggs (beat them)  
  • Some Sesame seeds (to be sprinkled on the top of Burek)
  • a square or rectangle cake pan
Filling Ingredient:
  • 400-500 grams of beef's meat
  • 1 medium onion (chop into small pieces)
  • 2-3 cloves of garlic (chop into small pieces) 
  • Some salt (as you like)
  • 1-2 table spoon white of Black pepper (as you like)
  • 1 cube of Beef or chicken broth
  • 1-2 table spoon of curry powder
  • 2-3 table spoon of sweet soy sauce (Indonesian brand is the best hehehe) if it's hard to find feel free to not using it  
  • 2 table spoon of Oil or butter
  • 2 table spoon of cream cheese
  • 2 green onion (chop)
  • 2 celery (chop)
fry the onion and garlic till it gives you good smell and golden in color. Add beef, and then sat, pepper, curry powder, beef or chicken broth (cube or powder), sweet soy sauce and then stir them till cooked. After when it almost cooked, add the green onion, celery and cream cheese. when the filling is ready, let it cool down for a while before using it. 

  • On the bottom of the pan.. wipe all the butter to the the pan surface
  • Put the first layer of Fillo dough (you can cut the dough following the size of the pan) and then using the cooking brush (basting brush) spread the melted butter on the first layer of Fillo dough and then spread the eggs on it (you can use another brush or using spoon anyway easier for you). After adding butter and eggs, put another layer (the 2nd layer) of Fillo dough into the pan and repeat exactly the same way until the 8th layer.
  • On the 8th layer, after spreading butter and eggs, spread half part of the filling (seasoned beef). After that add another layer of Fillo dough, repeat the same method of spreading butter and eggs till the 16th layer
  • On the 16th layer, after spreading butter and eggs, spread another half part of the filling (seasoned beef) on it. and then add another layer and repeat adding butter and eggs all over it till the 24th layer
  • On the final top of the Burek, spread the eggs and then cut the burek slowly into 20-24 small squares (depend on the size of the pan) and then ad the sesame seed
  • Preheat the oven 350 F
  • Bake the Burek for 30 minutes (or more, make sure you check it)
And that's it :) Let's try :)

Buat teman teman Indo :) Ini resep Burek dalam Bahasa Indonesia

Bahan Dasar:
  • 1 pak Fillo Dough (buat yang di Indo khususnya yang di Jakarta bisa nyari di Ranch Market)
  • Sekitar 113 gram mentega (cairin di tempat terpisah)
  • 3 butir telur (kocok lepas)  
  • Wijen (untuk ditabur di atas Burek)
  • Loyang kue yang kotak atau persegi panjang (pastiin agak dalam jangan tipis)
Bahan Isian:
  • 400-500 grams daging sapi
  • 1 buah bawang bombay (rajang halus)
  • 2-3 buah bawang putih (rajang halus) 
  • Garam (sesuai selera)
  • 1-2 sendok makan lada (boleh tambah atau kurang, sesuai selera)
  • Kaldu blok atau bubuk (secukupnya)
  • 1-2 sendok makan bubuk kari
  • 2-3 sendok makan kecap manis (boleh tambah atau kurang, sesuai selera)  
  • 2 sendok makan minyak atau mentega (untuk menumis)
  • 2 sendok makan cream cheese (kalo nggak suka creamy nggak pake gapapa, boleh diganti keju cedar kalo susah nyari cream cheese)
  • 2 batang bawang daun (rajang)
  • 2 batang seledri (rajang)
Buat isinya, tumis bawang bombay dan bawang putih sampe harum terus masukin semua bumbu lainnya. Pas hampir mateng, tambah daun bawang dan seledri sama cream cheese nya. Aduk lagi sampe mateng terus kalo udah jadi dinginkan sebelum dipake. 

Cara Membuat:
  • Oleskan mentega ke seluruh permukaan loyang
  • Letakkan lapisan pertama kulit pastry atau fillo dough kemudian oleskan mentega leleh dan telur. Ulangi cara ini sampai lapisan ke 8.
  • Pada lapisan ke 8 setelah diberi metega dan telur, taburkan merata setengah dari isian, kemudian setelah rata, tambahkan lapisan fillo dough dan ulangi cara pertama hingga lapisan ke 16
  • Pada lapisan ke 8 setelah diberi metega dan telur, taburkan merata sisa setengah dari isian, kemudian setelah rata, tambahkan lapisan fillo dough dan ulangi cara pertama hingga lapisan ke 24
  • Pada lapisan paling atas oleskan telur secara merata kemudian potong perlahan Burek hingga 20-24 baian kecil (sesuai ukuran loyang). Pada bagian atas yg telah dilumuri telur, taburkan biji wijen (sesuai selera).
  • Panaskan oven pada suhu176 Celcius (350 Fahrenheit)
  • Panggang Burek selama kurang lebih 30 menit (pastikan di cek yaaa)
Gimana? gampang kan. Selamat mencoba :)

Sunday, December 29, 2013


Yesterday, I hosted some friends on my Father's 10th day death commemoration at my apartment in Lincoln NE, USA. My family also did the same ceremony back home (in Banda Aceh-Indonesia) on the same day. For the event, I decided to cook a chicken soup called "Soto Medan". Alhamdulillah, surprisingly the soup resulted many positive comment from some friends. One of my friend from Tunisia, Imen, asked me the recipe of the soup coz she loved it. Oh.. well then let's share to everyone :)

For your information Soto Medan is very easy to make. The only concern is that prepare yourself to go shop at the Asian Store and Arab Store coz you will need to buy some ingredients from there. So.. here is the recipe


  • 1 Whole Chicken, cut into 4 or 8 (If you only eat halal or kosher labeled chicken/ meat you can find it at the Arab Store or any store sells kosher meat. I know some super saver store sell halal chicken and I knew whole food sells kosher chicken and meat )
  • Salt
  • Sugar
  • Chicken broth cube (about 1-2)
  • Oil to fry about 5 table spoon
  • 3 medium bay leaves
  • 1 cinnamon stick (about 2 inch long)
  • 1/4 tea spoon nutmeg powder
  • 1 littre or more water 
  • 1 can (450 ml) coconut milk (I like to use the Aroy D coconut milk for dessert from Asian store but you can use any coconut milk)
  • 3 green onion (slice)
  • some celery leaves (chop)
  • Fried Shallot 
Spice Paste (mix with food processor):
  • 10 shallot
  • 6 cloves garlic
  • 1.5 inch ginger
  • 1.5 inch galangal
  • 1/2 inch of turmeric or 1 table spoon turmeric powder
  • 1 teaspoon coriander seeds (stir on a hot pan without oil)
  • 1 teaspoon pepper seeds (stir on a hot pan without oil)
  • 1/2 teaspoon cumin seeds (stir on a hot pan without oil)
  • 5 candle nut (stir on a hot pan without oil)
Additional Ingredients:
  • Homemade fried potato chips
  • Bean spout
  • chilly paste (from thai chilly)
  • lemon/lime juice
  • Sweet soy sauce (find Indonesian brand hehehe)
  1. Heat up the oil and add all the bay leaves and cinnamon stick followed by the spice paste. stir the ingredients until it smells good. 
  2. Add chicken, salt, a little sugar and chicken broth cube and then add water. Boil until the chicken cooked.
  3. Take out the chicken, separate the bones. Take the bones back into the soup. Then shred the chicken (you can fried the chicken before shred it)
  4. Into the soup, add coconut milk and maybe water (if needed) and add more salt. Boil the soup and stir it until it well boiled. and done
  5. Prepare in a bowl shredded chicken+fried potato chips+bean sprout+pour the soup+sliced celery and green onion+fried shallot
and.. your soto medan is ready :)

Wednesday, December 25, 2013


3 bulan lalu saya baru saja pulang ke Indonesia dari US karna saya berencana menyelesaikan thesis s2 saya di Indo dengan pertimbangan lebih hemat dari sisi ekonomi. Semua menentang keputusan saya, termasuk Bunda dan advisor saya dengan alasan saya tidak akan fokus di Indo. Tapi saya insist (maksa) ingin pulang dengan berbagai alasan. Sampai akhirnya ketika saya seminggu pertama di Indo, saya tidak dapat focus dan merasa “mungkin keputusan saya salah

3 minggu pertama di Indo, kondisi Ayah saya terus melemah namun tidak drastis. Minggu ke 4 saya mendapat kabar duka dari satu satu nya paman saya dari sisi ayah saya (abang dari ayah saya). Beliau kembali menghadap Allah setelah sempat diopname di Rumah Sakit. Saya sangat bersyukur karna Allah mengizinkan saya bertemu dengan beliau ketika beliau dirawat di Rumah Sakit. Rasanya lebih dari 5 tahun kami tidak bertemu dan tidak pernah saya duga bahwa itu akhir pertemuan kami disaat beliau masih bernyawa.

Saya pun berfikir, mungkin inilah kenapa Allah menakdirkan kepulangan saya ke Banda Aceh.

Minggu ke 5 ayah saya sakitnya bertambah parah dan ayah dan saya berencana berangkat berobat ke Malaysia bersama saya dan Bunda. Sayangnya di minggu ke 6 saya di Indonesia kami terpaksa tidak jadi berangkat karna ayah drop tidak sadarkan diri dan harus dilarikan ke rumah sakit.

Minggu ke 7 kami habiskan bersama keluarga di rumah sakit karna ayah harus dirawat setelah menjalani operasi. Di minggu minggu ini saya semakin yakin bahwa ini semua rencana Allah. Walaupun sedih, rasa syukur atas kesempatan berada disisi ayah dimasa sulitnya jauh lebih besar dan berarti.

Minggu ke 8 kami kembali ke rumah dan memutuskan rawat jalan. Minggu 8-11 kami habiskan bersama di rumah dengan mengupayakan berbagai pengobatan kepada beliau dan tentunya memotivasi beliau untuk terus berjuang melawan penyakitnya. Alhamdulillah dengan kondisi yang naik-turun, ayah menunjukkan semangat beliau untuk sembuh. Sempat saya mengatakan pada ayah bahwa saya akan menunda kepulangan saya dan melanjutkan studi di semester berikutnya demi beliau, namun jawaban beliau adalah “apa yang una bilang itu nak, jangan!” Maksud beliau adalah agar saya tetap dengan rencana saya untuk kembali ke US di bulan desember dan segera menyelesaikan studi saya.

Minggu ke 12 saya harus kembali ke US, di hari saya kembali, saya habiskan waktu waktu terakhir saya bersama beliau. Saya suapi makannya, potong kukunya, dan saya cukur jenggotnya hingga wajah ayah terlihat bersih. Ayah tidak seperti biasanya, hari itu beliau terlihat bersemangat. Ayah juga jauh lebih responsive dengan tingkat kesadaran yang lebih baik dari biasanya. Akhirnya tibalah waktu saya untuk berangkat ke bandara. Tidak seperti biasanya saat melepas kepergian saya, kali ini Ayah berkata “selamat jalan” smoga cepat selesai dan dua kecupan dari saya ke wajah Ayah menjadi salam perpisahan terakhir kami. Sedih rasanya namun saya tepis jauh jauh perasaan itu karna saya yakin saya akan kembali bertemu Ayah di awal maret nanti setelah menyelesaikan sidang akhir thesis saya.

Sejak menginjakkan kaki di Negri Paman Sam ini, tidak satu haripun saya lupa menanyakan ke adik laki laki saya tentang kabar ayah. Awal minggu pertama saya di US saya sempatkan untuk skype dengan beliau dan tenang rasanya saya melihat beliau sadar dan tidak lupa seperti biasanya (Ayah saya sebelumnya sering hilang ingatan sesaat).

Hari hari berikutnya di minggu pertama saya di US saya sempat 2 hari tidak dapat kabar dari adik saya yg membuat saya khawatir sampai akhirnya saya mendapat kabar di malam selasa bahwa beliau sudah 2 hari dirawat di rumah sakit.
Mendengar kabar tersebut tentunya bagaikan petir di siang hari. Namun adik saya selalu menenangkan saya dengan berkata "ayah is doing alright Kak Una"

Selasa kemarin saya sungguh tidak tenang. Rasanya selalu ingin menangis entah kenapa. Malam rabu saya mengapat kabar grmbira dari teman saya yg membuat saya sangaaaat bahagia namun menangis mengingat ayah saya hingga saya berdoa

"Yaaa Allah, jika engkau dengar doaku untuknya maka dengarkanlah doaku untuk ayah ku"

Malam itu saya entah mengapa terus mengingat ayah saya. Saya mulai berdoa untuk kesembuhan beliau sampai akhirnya saya focus berdoa

"Ya Allah, Jika tiba waktunya ayah harus kembali kepada Mu ya Allah. Slamatkanlah Imannya dan izinkan beliau kembali kepadamu dengan cara khusnul khatimah"

Saya terus fokus dengan doa tersebut dan terus menangis hingga malam itu sayapun terlelap dalam tangisan dan doa saya. Rabu pagi dini hari jam 5 waktu midwest USA atau menjelang magrib di Banda Aceh, Saya terbangun mendengar notification bbm dari kakak sepupu saya di jakarta. Dia pun menanyakan apakah saya sudah mendapat kabar?

Saya liat status bbm Kakak sepupu saya bertuliskan
"Selamat jalan om"

Sontak saya bertanya “siapa yg meninggal?”

Dan kakak sepupu saya menjawab
Bahwa ayah saya telah meninggalkan saya untuk selamanya.
Penyesalan.. Kesedihan.. Sakit yg tidak dapat saya ucapkan tiba tiba mengambil semua energi saya untuk menangis dan terus menangis. Ditemani roommate saya, Saya menangis menanhan rasa sakit ditinggal Ayah.

Tapi setelah saya tenang saya istighfar dan mensyukuri betapa indahnya rencana Allah dan betapa indah cara Allah mengambil kembali ayah yg sangat saya cintai dan sayangi, tidak ada yang saya sesali karna ini adalah kebaikan dari Allah.
  • Kebaikan atas pertemuan saya dan keluarga saya
  • Kebaikan atas akhir penderitaan ayah saya atas sakitnya
  • Kebaikan telah memberi saya kesempatan merawatnya dan menghabiskan waktu bersamanya
  • Kebaikan karna Allah menghapus dosa-dosa ayah selama ayah menderita dalam sakitnya
  • Kebaikan karna memberikan saya teman-teman yg baik yg menyemangati saya hingga saya bisa tabah dan tegar.

فَبِأَيِّ آلاءِ رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ.
(Q.S: Arrahman)
Maka Nikmat Tuhan Kamu yang Manakah yang Kamu Dustakan

Jika saya menangis sekarang ini, saya bahagia dan bersyukur karna tangis saya bukan tangis penyesalan tapi tangis rindu dan kebahagiaan mengenang kebersamaan saya bersama ayah, menjadi satu satu nya anak perempuan ayah dan menjadi anak tertuanya, kakak bagi dua adik laki laki saya.

‫فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْراً
إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْراً
(Q.S: Al Insyirah: 5-6)
“Karena sesunggunya sesudah kesulitan ada kemudahan.

Sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan ada kemudahan”